12 am.

Well its 12 am and naturally I should be sleeping...well I'm not. Nor have I been the last few weeks. I'm not going to start complaining about pregnancy symptoms I promise, and in fact I have no idea where this post is going....I think it might be going in the direction of... "all the crazy things on my mind". This happens every so often. Its called me having anxiety, usually about my anxiety. I would be talking to my wonderful husband about this but he is currently studying the inside of his eyelids like a normal person.
So unfortunately some of you get to read about it.  I get in these anxiety ruts that I cant pop out of. Sometimes it happens when Its time for sleep.

So tonight I started thinking about my family. My mom and dad, sisters and my brother all individually and all the stresses THAT COULD be going on in their lives.....not that they even are!!!!! But could.  My brain started on a roll with that for about 20 minutes.
Then I started hearing McKay snoring which lead me to thinking about him.  Tonight we had some of the Elk that McKay shot for dinner, he made some delicious steaks. I started to think about the possibility of this animal having a crazy disease that that hasn't been discovered yet and that we may die from it.  15 minutes people.
Then of course the pregnancy. I think about all of the horrible things that my go wrong with this delivery. What happens if there is a snow storm and I go into labor and I cant make it to the hospital? Or if I do make it, and McKay doesn't? AH!

This is seriously how my brain works. Its on and off, and comes in waves. Its actually quite frustrating. But I'm looking at our beautiful Christmas tree and its calming my brain down a bit.  I'm probably going to go eat some ice cream now, because I can, and its peppermint. :) So nighty nighty to you all.