I've been a little down latley. I think its a lot of things.
My grandma is really sick. She's not doing well. As most of you know she has cancer and is at the end of it. Her blood count is low. So low that the doctors don't know how its possible she's alive, they say its a medical miracle that she's not passed. We all love her so much. I really haven't had to deal with much death in my life. I was very little when my dads mom passed away so I don't really remember it. But my grandma and I are so close, and Its going to be a difficulty dealing with whats to come.
I've been a little stressed at home. I feel like the laundry is never done, but yet I never stop doing it. I cant ever keep anything clean, trying to have quality interaction time with Bostyn.
I'm sure all things, that the average mom struggles with
But Mckay is always good at telling me what a good job I'm doing. Going with the flow, even when he comes home to a disastrous house. Burnt dinner, and a wife still in work out clothes not showered. Yikes, but there is NO PLACE I'd rather be then there for Bostyn. I want to be home with her. Being a stay at home mom is what I've always wanted. I really can say being home is everything its cracked up to be.
Hard.
and more rewarding then any other job I could have.
There's a lot of things that I want. Mac and I have a plan mapped out for our life. Where we want to be financially, where we want to live, go to school, what kind of house we want, when we want it etc...
Its so hard being patient for those things, and not comparing where our life is with other people. I have to take a step back and realize that these are the good times. I know it sounds cheesy but its the truth and I don't care. These are the times that we'll look at at be like, man life was good. There was a quote from the office that Andy said in the last episode. "I wish there was a way to know you're in the good old days before you've actually left them." And thats where we are now. And I realize that, even on my selfish days, cranky days, over whelmed days, rainy days....
Were fine. And Life is great.
hey gorgeous girL! I have been absent from the blog world for awhile, so good to catch up on your life. I love you and seriously MISS you!! I was thinking about you the other day and was thinking your sis comes home soon from her mish so 4 months that's awesome!!! I'm really sorry about your grandma. It's hard to loose someone close to you and someone you have such a great relationship with. but just remember when that time comes she will be with loved ones and be able to watch over you and keep you safe.
ReplyDeleteGirl I feel ya on being a mother and feel like things never get done. Just remember you are doing the best you can and if the house is a mess because you payed for attention to bostyn who cares!!! THat's what is most important in your life anyway! She is seriously DOLL!! Can't believe how big our girls are getting. Hate that we live far away! They would be such good girl friend buddies!! Anyways, just wanted to tell you that i love you and am always thinking of you even though we live far away and i'm terribly at staying in contact. Keep blogging so i can feel like i'm apart of your life hahah. love you sis!!!
sorry this was a NOVEL!!