I didn't know it was possible for some one to be this exhausted. When I worked at Stonehaven, I thought there was no way ever that I would be more tired.......little did I know....
After I had Bostyn, The first 6 weeks were hell. I'll just be flat out honest. Not because she was a horrible baby or anything, I just call it new born hell. NO SLEEP. But after 6 weeks, she was sleeping solid through the night. From 10-7, every day, and its been BLISS I tell you, until the last couple of weeks. She's kinda flip flopped again. Like taking really really good naps during the day, and waking up tonz at night. Its so weird. I mean Its already exhausting enough just being a mom, but with limited sleep, it just makes it that much harder to function.
I had her on a really good system but I don't know whats happened all of a sudden. about 8:00 I would feed her some solid foods, give her a really warm bath, then feed her a bottle and put her down, and that made her sleep through the night. Now all of a sudden she wants to go to bed for the night at like 6:30, and It's so hard to keep her a wake.....anyway...yeah, I'm tired.
Because mac works so much I take care of her when she wakes up in the middle of the night. I want him to be able to have some energy through out the day because he works so hard. Bostyn has her 6 month appointment next week so I may just ask him for suggestions.
I just am at the point where its almost impossible to function through out the day. And I feel like its making me be a bad mom. And Its not just because of limited sleep....Its just everything. Taking a child with you everywhere seems small, but its so much harder then it sounds. Then its feeding them, play time, nap time, diapers, baths. And I know what some of you are thinking that don't have kids. Just take a nap when she is. It soooooo doesnt work like that! Somewhere between everything, its laundry, dishes, at some point I have to get ready for the day, picking up toys, grocery shopping, dinner.....UH! AND I ONLY HAVE ONE KID hahaha I dont know how people do it with 2, 3,4 kids. But they do.
Don't get me wrong. I would so much rather be home with my sweet girl then anywhere else. Its not a glamorous lifestyle..... and its hard, but its the best. Oh goodness I love being a mommy. I've just had one of those weeks.....and I don't feel bad about that. I'm allowed to have them and talk about them. We've just kinda had a crazy summer, and a lot going on. We just finished paying off Bostyn so now we'll have a little bit more money to do things together hopefully. Mac's been gone a lot more, so sometimes I feel like its just me. :(
And I really miss my sisters. I'm the only one here now...and I miss them. My sister has been in Texas for a little over a year and I think I've seen her maybe twice. Madison has been on her mission for almost 5 months and It sucks. Soon my older sister will be moving back here around Christmas time and that will be good. I cant wait.
Well there's only a couple months left of summer and this dreadful heat hallelujah! We still have some more things coming up this summer but I'm so looking forward to my favorite time of year already....cant wait.
Hi Ash!! I know how you feel with those sleepless nights!! Cash has been teething and has been waking up all through the night for the last week. But if your little girl is ready for bed around 6:30 or 7 maybe just try putting her down for the night at that time. We used to put Cash to bed at 10 and then I read some where that they need to go to bed earlier and that it didn't matter what time you put them down they will wake up at the same time anyways. So we started putting him down sometime between 8-9 and sometimes he will go to bed at like 7:30 or 7 if he is really tired and he still wakes up at the same time he did when we put him down later. I also read somewhere that if you keep your baby up when they are tired then they can reach a point of over tiredness and is can cause them to not sleep as well and just toss and turn all night. But I don't know haha I am no expert its my first time too! But its worth a try. If you ever want to drop her off then she is welcome to come and hang out with me and Cash :)PS sorry for the extra long comment haha
ReplyDeleteSorry one other thing haha If Cash gets tired and its too early for bed like at 6:30 then we put him in the tub and take a really long bath and then get him out and ready for bed and by that time its at least a little bit later and ok for him to go to sleep. Anyways good luck girl!!
ReplyDeleteHang in there Ash! It gets better! I remember how hard it was with Micah. He was by far the hardest--not necessarily because of him but the adjustment was crazy. It really is hard to tote a child everywhere you go. If you're anything like me, the first child will be the hardest and then it gets easier because you'll have already adjusted, more or less, to mommy life, so don't feel bad that it's hard "with just one kid". It is hard!!!!! Of course, each child brings new adjustments and challenges, but for me, the first was the most exhausting. As far as her suddenly waking up a lot at night, that's actually pretty normal. A lot of times you'll have a great schedule going and then out of nowhere they get all messed up. Usually it's because they're teething, but sometimes there's no good reason for it. I'm just jealous she was sleeping through the night for you at all! Maycie is still waking up 2-3 times a night. Gah!!! I might have to try your cereal, bath, then milk routine and see if it works. I tried letting her cry it out for one waking and she screamed her guts out for 2 straight hours. Yeah....that wasn't a fun night. Anyway, I'm excited to come back to Utah, too! We'll have to hang out lots. Only 5 more months!
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